Shame

I missed another post.  I think the honeymoon stage is over and I'm no longer SUPER excited to make something.  It's becoming more of a chore or hassle.  Which is made worse by the fact that I'm overwhelmed with 'stuff' and trying to weed it all out yet need more stuff for projects.  And we are poor, because despite everything we are still one of those dumb Americans living beyond their means.  Not that our means our very high on a one salary household.  I feel some guilt about that often, yet I can't help but want to raise my own babies.

It makes me think of child rearing for some reason or more so that infamous word of 'discipline'.  I remember chatting with a coworker one time, who was saying shame is good and that kids neeed it and use it constructively.  I was really put off of at first, but I sort of see where she was coming from.  Basically cause and effect. If we feel bad about something we will change our behavior.  Except I'm the type of person that will shame myself, too much and the constant negative feelings within myself, God forbid somebody add to that, is so intense it puts me in a state of depresive stasis.  Who knows maybe that's where I am now sort of.  If I can't do something perfectly how I envision I get really upset and usually quit.  So in a way this project if nothing else will hopefully push through whatever rut I happen to be in at the time and show me that even though life isn't perfect, it's still a great life, filled with great people. 
I think the same applies to children.  If they find their own shame in their actions then fine we as parents can help them work through that feeling and find a solution, not just make them feel worse.

On to the whole point of the post I suppose.  I made a decision to give up sloppiness today.  Maybe that's gross and sad that I need to do this, but I'm going to try really hard to not have any laundry or dishes that need doing by the end of the night.  We are somehow going to try to apply it to the whole house but keeping up on laundry and dishes is our main goal.  I'm not sure if 'making' a decision counts but I'm going with it, afterall I'm quite the indecisive person so any decision is a project.

My goal for tomorrow is to make a craft station as it was just floating around until I got tired of it and just put it away, thus no crafts.